I’ve been stuck in a mental cave of negativity and spending way too much energy on something that is now outside of my control. I was dwelling on it the other day while driving and I asked myself, “If I wasn’t thinking about this, what would I be focusing on?”
The answer didn’t come to me quickly or easily. My life has tipped so far into the uncharted territory I couldn’t see a path back. Now while running I am thinking about what is it I need to focus on today to get me back on track?
My mind is still drifting into the negative, victim place. I am aware of it and yet it still goes there. It is frustrating to know something and still not be able to control the thoughts and feelings around this difficult place I find myself.
Better every day is the goal. I guess this will be like when I started running again in my 40’s. It was tough and I didn’t think I was ever going to feel good again. It took time and a commitment to keep going. Eventually I got better and now it is great.
Keep the goal in mind, trust that good things happen in time, and run happy!